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Saturday, April 26, 2008

Measuring Up... or Down!

Okay, big day at the gym. It was measurements day! My high weight is 347, my weight in February was 224, my weight yesterday was 213 (thanks TOM)

I was shocked my waist went down again and so much in 2 months. I haven't had a 38" waist since 8th grade... and probably not even then!

Note that my calves actually went up a 1/2", but I swear they look even leaner and meaner since the MS150.

Here's the rest...







Friday, April 25, 2008

More Meme from Mama

What was I doing ten years ago?
April 25, 1998? I had just moved to Dallas from NJ about 10 months prior. I think I was struggling to make a final break-up real. It was one of those long-term break-ups where you found yourself back in the arms of the one who was supposed to be an "ex." Not good, but come the following Memorial Day it was really done. I was working as a network administrator for a Big 5 accounting firm and was driving my first brand-new car, a Pontiac Sunfire. It was the start of the upswing of my life. :)

Five things on my To-Do list today:
  1. Decide on what sh*t to sell to afford more training sessions. Anyone interested in a Coach bag and matching wallet and wristlet?
  2. Make today a good day. :)
  3. Call Opthalmologist (an possibly learn how to spell it).
  4. Be outgoing, not shy, at my Daughter's Daycare Sprng Fling. (I have to volunteer)
  5. Be aware and stay in the moment.

What wouldn't I do?
  1. Why think about what you won't do?

Three of my bad habits:
  1. Leaving the fridge door open.
  2. Leaving my shoes out (even though I hate it when others do!)
  3. Spending... but I'm getting better.

Five places I’ve lived:
  1. Bronx, NY
  2. East Windsor, NJ
  3. Red Bank, NJ.
  4. Edison, NJ.
  5. Dallas, TX. (Currently in Houston)

Five jobs I’ve had:
  1. Administrative Assistant
  2. Marketing Coordinator
  3. This is a good one: "Subject Matter Expert" (seriously, that' the title)
  4. Technical Support/Network Administrator
  5. Currently IT Manager

Five books I’ve recently read:
  1. A New Earth
  2. The Owners Manual: YOU Staying Young
  3. The Owners Manual: The Guide to Waist Management
  4. Under Construction, Jackie Guerra
  5. A Bug's Life (Wha? I have a pre-schooler!)

Who am I taggin?
  1. Anyone who wants to play.

Thursday, April 24, 2008

Attack Plan

So the Tri is Sunday, June 9th. That's exactly 6 weeks away! This mean very little in the way of a break.

FRI: Lifting
SAT: Swim/Bike Brick (first brick to use stationery bike at gym)
SUN: Bike/Run Brick
MON: Cardio
TUE: Lifting
WED: Bike/Run Brick
THU: Cardio

I can't really take a day off at this point, so my training days will be my lighter days *cough*.

Another good thing is that I have most of what I need. I have submitted my budgetary needs to my DFO (domestic financial counselor = "Hubs") and he will either approve or veto!

1 Night Hotel Stay @ Austin 104
Sneakers (Pearl iZumi Streak) 109
Sleeveless Jersey ( @Team Terry) 50
Desoto Tri Shorts (Vuelo @ SwimOutlet.com) 40
Gloves (@Team Terry) 40
Registration Fee 75
Fuel 100
Meals (Sat: Lunch/Dinner Sun: Lunch/Dinner 100
Miscellaneous 75
TOTAL
693


The feeling of accomplishment Priceless

I have to be cost-conscious, as I raised nearly $1,000 for the Ms150, but spent more than in prep and gear... the stuff adds up!

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

100 Ways Wednesdays!

Here we are again... this weeks installment (41 - 50) of 100 Ways my life has been changed. Join SignGurl and company and list-away!

In as many ways as my life has changed, it is really challenging to actually think, recall and list them.

For the last few weeks I've been focusing on the positive, but I think it's only fair to give press to the challenges too



41) Ingesting an "alphabet" of vitamins... everyday.
42) A small price to pay for being healthy, but never being able to eat eggs, tons of sweet treats or carbonated beverages again.
43) Have to restrain myself when making clothing purchases... or go broke!
44) Learned who my "real" friends are; lost some in the process.
45) As much confidence as I have found, it doesn't change that I'm still shy in social situations
46) Although losing weight has not unveiled a total clarity in my life, it has poised me to make some career-change decisions
47) Never drinking 30 minutes before, 30 minutes after or during meals
48) Losing weight doesn't magically make you love your body; it takes practice.
49) I still let the number on the scale piss me off; though I know better
50) Always having the fear I will gain it back (again,know better, but it's there)
1) I am no longer Diabetic.
2) I no longer suffer from High Cholesterol.
3) I no longer need a C-PAP Machine.
4) I identify myself less with being the fat-girl-who-can't-lose-weight and more with just living in a healthy, fit body.
5) I no longer worry about food in the same way I did before; I'm not consumed with it.
6) I have better cholesterol, at 128, than my doctor.
7) My Husband's constant reminders of how he supports my efforts in everything I do.
8) Being able to really "play" with my Daughter... Cart Wheel anyone?
9) Watching who I have always been (or wanted to be) on the inside come out.
10) Prioritizing my needs; investigating and strengthening my spirituality.
11) Not having to buy just shoes and handbags (because you know they always fit!).
12) Never taking for granted the fact that I can be physically challenged.
13) While I aways enjoyed exercise, I love it even more now -- because I can do more.
14) Seeing glimpses of a person who is occasionally more confident and at times even more social in unusual settings.
15) Not avoiding eye contact with strangers.
16) Not overflowing the air plane seat; being able to cross my legs.
17) Nights of sound, restful, sleep; feeling good in the morning!
18) Slowly gaining the courage to deal with emotional challenges and move past them for good.
19) Going from a size 26W to a 16 Misses ain't so bad either.
20) Living life, not just watching it. Roller blades anyone?
21) Receiving the occasional note from a stranger who tells you, "You inspire me". It always inspires me to be an even better me.
22) Having a great job and receiving appropriate recognition; being taken for the value I bring rather taken on the perception of being fat, lazy and less than smart.
23) Every time I see someone's look of shock, surprise and awe at what I've had the courage to do reminds me how life-changing getting healthy really is.
24) I always took vitamins; but now, EVERY DAY.
25) I've been changed by the stories of others on the same journey and am thankful these "online friends" were/are a part of mine. Strangers sometimes bring the best support.
26) Everything just feels good. Feels better. :) "Nookie" included.
27) Now being confident that I am, in deed, a good role-model for my Daughter.
28) Losing the weight and gaining my health has taken some clutter out of my life. Things seem a tad more simple... well, outside the acceptable levels of insanity.
29) Not totally dreading the Summer and swimsuits anymore.
30) Accepting wholly and practicing the realization that the number on the scale is just a number... it cannot dictate my disposition or who I am.
31) People see "me" more often, not just my size. 32) Have I mentioned I just feel "good?" No, I mean I feel "great!" 33) I absolutely cannot wear "Women's" sized tops anymore - that freaks me out! 34) Actually enjoying making choices that will improve my health and make for better nutrition. 35) The confidence I feel when other trainers at my gym say to my trainer, "she can bench what?" (135 lbs., FYI) 36) I no longer feel like I live under a veil of hopelessness. 37) Because I feel more confident, I am finding the courage to make some life-changing career decisions. 38) The indescribable feeling of just wanting to do more, More, MORE! 39) Just being happy and having others notice my happiness. 40) Not really WLS related, but my new implants and teeth -- having the freedom to smile about the 39 other things I've listed -- and I can chew my food on top of it! :)

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Not

pregnant.

Monday, April 21, 2008

Egg Whites = PUKE!

Okay, don't know what the deal is, but I've been eating egg whites and egg beaters for months. All of a sudden they make me puke. The smell of them just makes me want to gag. It's like they get stuck. Any other WLS post-ops have problems with eggs? It's just strange that it happened 15 months out!

Friday, April 18, 2008

A What? A Meme!

1. Do you like blue cheese?
It doesn't pass these lips; have no idea how Hubs eats it.

2. Have you ever smoked heroin?
No. Do you smoke it? Though that you shot it up?

3. Do you own a gun?
Me, no... but Hubs as 2 and they live in our house.

4. What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic?
Whatever their sugar-free flavor is... but I rarely go.

5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?
Depends on what it is for. I'm confident I'm pretty healthy.

6. What do you think of hot dogs?
Love'em... especially the real beef ones that are so full of fat and juicy. Nathan's & Sabrett's only!

7. Favorite Christmas movie?
A Christmas Story

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Coffee, at least 36 oz. on the week days.

9. Can you do push ups?
I can... but my boobs can't anymore.

10. What's your favorite piece of jewelry?
In know... trite as it may be, my wedding band.

11. Favorite hobby?
Training and participating in physical challenges.

12. Do you have A.D.D.?
Nobody had ADD when I was a kid... LOL

13. What's one trait you hate about yourself?
That it takes effort to not take things personally -- I'm getting better though.

14. Middle name? Marie

15. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment.
1) Odd question on the middle name; 2) Hope Courtney undertands 3) Coffee is getting cold.

16. Name 3 things you bought yesterday:
1) Yellow Fin Tuna Steak 2) Lowfat American Cheese 3) Low Carb Tortillas

17. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink?
1) Coffee 2) Water 3) Propel

18. Current worry?
That my Daughter will have a better day of "listening" at school.

19. Current hate right now?
Wow, Wow, Wubzy (if you don't have a pre-schooler you won't get it!)

20. Favorite place to be?
Location doesn't matter; spending quality time with famiy and friends.

21. Where would you like to go?
Some day, back to Italy and See Sani di Bari, where my ancestors are from.

22. Name three people who will complete this?
Set no expectations, get no dissapointment. Let me know if you do it though!

23. Do you own slippers?
Yes... "Smart Dogs" Best damned things for my feet!

24. What shirt are you wearing?
Black tee shirt

25. What year would you go back in time to? 1975

26. Can you whistle?
Yes... but not while I work; too distracting. Don't know how those Dwarfs did it.

27. Favorite color?
If you look at my closet, Brown... but lately I'm fond of Red.

28. Would you be a pirate?
Naaaah, but I do like playing one with my Daughter, "Argh matey!"

29. What songs do you sing in the shower?
I don't sing in the shower... would wake the family up.

30. Favorite girl's name? Cassandra (of course!)

31. Favorite boy's name? Tied between Ryan and Matthew

32. What's in your pocket right now? Vitamins

33. Last thing that made you laugh?
Boston Legal, last night.

34. Best Halloween costume?
Prison Princess Paris Hilton -- blonde wigh, little dog, big sunglasses and orange scrubs.

35. Worst injury you've ever had?
Ripped my ass cheek open on some decorative interior car molding (it was coming off) while climbing into the back seat. Needed 4 stiches the day before HS graduation!

37. How many TVs do you have in your house? One

38. Who is your loudest friend? Beth - but she is a native Texan. They're all loud to me!

39. How many dogs do you have? None. But we have a black Persian named Bubba

40. Does someone have a crush on you?
Hopefuly my Husband. :)

41. What is your favorite book(s)?
No real favorite, but I enjoy what I'm reading at the moment, "A New Earth"

42. What is your favorite candy?
Peanut M&M's

43. Favorite Sports Team?
Team High Road (that's were my George Hincapie is!)

44. Your favorite meal?
At the moment, Risotto with Shrimp & Asparagus, Aromatic Salmon in a Pouch and Marinated Green Beans. Taught to me in a class with Guiliano Hazan. It's fan-freakin' tastick

45. What were you doing at 12 a.m. last night? Sleeping.

46. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
It's Friday.. it's casual day!

Thursday, April 17, 2008

It's Thursday and that makes me one happy camper! I don't even care that I have a sh*tload of cr@p to do at home this weekend, I'm just happy to not HAVE to ride, or HAVE to be anywhere (except where I want to be). I will probably try to ride some, but I think my torture of choice this weekend will be to get in the pool and swim.

I didn't mention it fully, but my body did a freaky thing over the MS150. On Friday, I weighed in at 212. On Monday morning I was 219!!! There is no way in H-E-L-L that I gained 7 lbs. over the course of the MS150. My guess is I just created such a caloric deficit (and probably some water retention) that my body said, "WTF?!" and held on to every thing it could. The good thing is, my body is bouncing back (215 this morning). I imagine that getting back into my routine of 6 meals a day my body will be convinced I'm not starving it, I should be back down to 212 (maybe lower?) by the weekend. This very thing happened after the Space Race, and a week later I was back to normal.

All Things TRI'd:
After giving it some thought (emotionally and logistically) I think I'm going to do the Danskin Triathlon in Austin. The registration is not closed yet and I feel like it's God's whisper to me to get in there and do it. Do I really need him to bonk me over the head???

Originally, I was going to do the Austin tri with some friends, but the majority ruled and they opted to do the Danskin in Chicago instead of Austin. With some family logistics in question I couldn't commit 100% to going to Chicago for the tri. I was bummed... and maybe in a way a little nervous about the thought of now doing it on my own. Life gets in the way sometimes, and you have go to Plan B.

So while I'm riding this wave of accomplishment it's probably a good time to commit. So the date is Sunday, June 8th. Swim - 1/2 mile, Bike - 12 miles, Run - 3.1 miles. I will register this week to secure my spot. :)


All Things Eaten:
I'm journaling my food, as usual. But man some things are made so clear when you do. Like how evil fully-leaded cheese really is; it's like a full .7 oz slice of fat. I made a hasty decision while trying to quickly shop in the store for some essentials. When they were out of the 2% cheese, I said "well, some regular cheese this once won't kill us." Well, it's true it won't kill us, but a slice of that totally throws your macro nutrient ratios off! Oh well... it's not a travesty, just an eye opener.


Other than that I have nothing more to rant or rave about. Oh wait! I do!!

All Yummy Things that Fuel Us:
During my MS150 prep I did find a new quick energy snack (in addition to my Snackin' Flax Granola Bites and Mediterranean Apricots) that I like (and my pouch likes as well) Mojo Cliff Bars. I've only tried the "Dipped Chocolate Peanut."

The Mojo bar is higher in calories, but in my world they would only be used in conjunction with a full-on training workout or fueling during an event. The chewy granola and touch of sugar are great sources of quick energy, while getting a little bit of protein from the peanuts. The Sweet and Salty combo really hits the spot. I'd rather eat a salty Clif bar than drink a shot of pickle juice (which seems to be all the rage right now).

I've never really been a fan of Clif because the sugar content, although mostly organic is usually just way too high - even for an average person. But this particular Mojo Cliff touts just 11 grams of sugar. For me, in "Melting Mama's" terms it is "pouch friendly."

Not being nearly the food reviewer that Mama is, I'm just going to end this by saying, They're Great! :)

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

Back to the boring stuff... the stuff exercise food journals are made of. Had a good workout last night. Did upper body and abs.

I love this machine -- the cable cross. We did nearly the entire upper body workout on it. Both the negative and positive resistance is a true (and productive) workout.

Cable Shoulder Press
Cable Biceps Curl
Cable Triceps Press
Cable High Row
Lat Pull down
Barbell Bench Press
Knee ups on barbell bench
Crunches on Disk

My body is retaliating, big time, for creating such a calorie deficit over the course of the MS150. No worries though... things will be back to normal by the end of the week. My body just needs some reassurance that is is going to receive some routine nutrition -- unlike over the weekend. LOL







Here we are again... this weeks installment (40 - 49) of 100 Ways my life has been changed. Join SignGurl and company and list-away!

In as many ways as my life has changed, it is really challenging to actually think, recall and list them.


41) I eat better; therefore my family eats better.
42) It takes far less luggage to pack clothes; I can really use a weekender for a weekend!
43) Belts, are actually used for function AND fashion
44) Hubs can almost "double-wrap" me on hugs
45) My Daughter is already learning the importance of not just eating healthy, but exercise too!
46) Regular sized (and smaller) portions really do fill me up; I feel so "normal"
47) Losing all this body fat is slowly revealing some killer calves!
48) As I feel better about me I find my spirit to be more resilient
49) Nothing to hinder me from having great fun and trying new things.

1) I am no longer Diabetic.
2) I no longer suffer from High Cholesterol.
3) I no longer need a C-PAP Machine.
4) I identify myself less with being the fat-girl-who-can't-lose-weight and more with just living in a healthy, fit body.
5) I no longer worry about food in the same way I did before; I'm not consumed with it.
6) I have better cholesterol, at 128, than my doctor.
7) My Husband's constant reminders of how he supports my efforts in everything I do.
8) Being able to really "play" with my Daughter... Cart Wheel anyone?
9) Watching who I have always been (or wanted to be) on the inside come out.
10) Prioritizing my needs; investigating and strengthening my spirituality.
11) Not having to buy just shoes and handbags (because you know they always fit!).
12) Never taking for granted the fact that I can be physically challenged.
13) While I aways enjoyed exercise, I love it even more now -- because I can do more.
14) Seeing glimpses of a person who is occasionally more confident and at times even more social in unusual settings.
15) Not avoiding eye contact with strangers.
16) Not overflowing the air plane seat; being able to cross my legs.
17) Nights of sound, restful, sleep; feeling good in the morning!
18) Slowly gaining the courage to deal with emotional challenges and move past them for good.
19) Going from a size 26W to a 16 Misses ain't so bad either.
20) Living life, not just watching it. Roller blades anyone?
21) Receiving the occasional note from a stranger who tells you, "You inspire me". It always inspires me to be an even better me.
22) Having a great job and receiving appropriate recognition; being taken for the value I bring rather taken on the perception of being fat, lazy and less than smart.
23) Every time I see someone's look of shock, surprise and awe at what I've had the courage to do reminds me how life-changing getting healthy really is.
24) I always took vitamins; but now, EVERY DAY.
25) I've been changed by the stories of others on the same journey and am thankful these "online friends" were/are a part of mine. Strangers sometimes bring the best support.
26) Everything just feels good. Feels better. :) "Nookie" included.
27) Now being confident that I am, in deed, a good role-model for my Daughter.
28) Losing the weight and gaining my health has taken some clutter out of my life. Things seem a tad more simple... well, outside the acceptable levels of insanity.
29) Not totally dreading the Summer and swimsuits anymore.
30) Accepting wholly and practicing the realization that the number on the scale is just a number... it cannot dictate my disposition or who I am.
31) People see "me" more often, not just my size.
32) Have I mentioned I just feel "good?" No, I mean I feel "great!"
33) I absolutely
cannot wear "Women's" sized tops anymore - that freaks me out!
34) Actually enjoying making choices that will improve my health and make for better nutrition.
35) The confidence I feel when other trainers at my gym say to my trainer, "she can bench what?" (135 lbs., FYI)
36) I no longer feel like I live under a veil of hopelessness.

37) Because I feel more confident, I am finding the courage to make some life-changing career decisions.

38) The indescribable feeling of just wanting to do more, More, MORE!
39) Just being happy and having others notice my happiness.
40) Not really WLS related, but my new implants and teeth -- having the freedom to smile about the 39 other things I've listed -- and I can chew my food on top of it! :)

Monday, April 14, 2008

MS150 - Done!

Well, I finished! And yes, I am proud. I'm also very grateful that everyone was so supportive, as their generosity gave me (and 13,000 other riders) the opportunity to experience something very special. The time on the bike was as challenging as it was fun... and at times even meditative.

Despite the fact that I always did things that were active in nature pre-op, the MS150 was one of those things I secretly feared; I could never fully commit to to it. In fact, I'd swim before I'd commit to riding 150 miles!! So completing the tour really makes me proud and it is like beating an old fear.

Would I do it again? I think so, but I know to do things a little differently. It was not without it's pitfalls and drama, but I don't want to dwell on that stuff and take away from the overall experience.

We really took full liberties on the tour. We took long rest stops (we needed it as we had strong headwinds and gusts up to 28mph -- the forecasts were sooooo wrong!). We even took time to enjoy sno-cones under a shady oak tree! We took extra stops for "photo ops" where we saw some beautiful scenery (in a car we'd ordinarily zoom right past and miss). We enjoyed meeting other riders as well. (I was made an honorary Exxon Mobile rider... see the tiger tail on my bike seat in the last picture). The camaraderie was great. The volunteers were also outstanding! In fact, I need to write the MS group and let them know about 2 in particular. Every town we traveled through welcomed us and cheered us on... it was just amazing. I came in to the finish at 4:05 pm on Sunday.

Here's some things of interest: There is a group of people that do this tour on Roller Blades... I can't even imagine that. This year there were two people on unicycles! Plus, Lance's team, along with some other elite groups, had a private start and did the Houston to Austin ride in less than a day.

Now for pictures (hope no one is on dial-up). First is a before and after. When I saw the picture of me now, it was the first time I took a double-take and said, "that's not me!" I literally had to look at it twice. Excuse the "Fonzie" thumbs-up reference... I'm such a dork sometimes. LOL





Now for the actual event pictures...

This was Friday... The expo that started off the weekend.

This was race morning getting ready for the start...
having a decent hair day too, before helmet head!

Me and my machine... note red-on-red the animal stripes. :)

Oh, and my jersey says "Ride Like a Girl" all over it;
I'm particularly fond of the pink flames on the shoulders.


Me and my riding partner, J.
The START line Saturday Morning... beautiful weather!
Lunch break on Saturday...
Pictures can't really capture how many riders are there...
It's like a Woodstock for Cycling enthusiasts!


Texas wild flowers in bloom...
and us taking a break to enjoy the scenery.

By far not one of the biggest hills....
just a sample of what the majority of the tour roads looked like
Uuuuppp, doooowwwwnn and upppp again...
Take a break... anywhere, really.
Like he was the only one there...
Still happy on the first day...
(do cycling helmets look good on anyone?)

Coming into downtown Austin...


The FINISH line
(taken after the race... not while riding. LOL)

Mommy finished! Thumbs up!!

We did it!

Friday, April 11, 2008

Another double-postage day...

Nice, quiet. No rain. The wind isn't even shifting the American Flag outside my office window. I'm praying things stay this serene over the course of the weekend.

Weather forecast (though this could change in 2 hours; we are in Texas, after all)

Houston (Start Line)
Saturday: Sunny, with a high near 74. North wind around 10 mph.
Saturday Night: Mostly clear, with a low around 48. North wind between 5 and 10 mph.

La Grange (Overnight)
Saturday...Sunny. Highs in the mid 70s. North winds 10 to 15 mph.
Saturday Night...Clear. Lows in the mid 40s. North winds 5 to 10 mph before midnight becoming light and variable.
Sunday...Sunny. Highs in the mid 70s. West winds 5 mph becoming northwest 10 to 15 mph in the afternoon.

Austin (Finish Line)
Sunday: Sunny, with a high near 78. North northwest wind between 5 and 10 mph.

Today is the Expo where we can go and get a bunch of free stuff. Tonight I have to pack. It is like prepping for a camping trip. Tomorrow morning I will ride from Houston to Belville (for lunch), then from Belville to La Grange. LaGrange is where I will camp overnight with my team; Sun and Ski Sports. On Sunday we'll go from La Grange to Bastrop for lunch. Then Bastrop to Austin! The probably drop dead!

By the way, thanks to everyone for their support I raised almost $1,000!

I know that physically I'm up to the challenge. I'm excited to be doing one of those things I avoided for so long, but I'd be lying if I Ididn't admit that no mater how I poise the thoughts in my head, 150 miles on a bike still seems a just a weensy bit daunting.

I'll do it and get through it. I'll be better for it in the end. :)

Kinda Boring -- 5 Things...

5 Things Found In My Bag
1. Wallet
2. Keys
3. Digital Camera
4. Toothbrush
5. Make-up/Woman Things

5 Things Found In My Wallet
1. Drivers License
2. Debit/Credit Cards
3. Free pass to Jumpin' Jungle
4. DSW Gift Card
5. Appointment card for Doctor

5 Things Found In My Room
1. Several pieces of turquoise colored pottery
2. Statue of an un-traditional China Girl
3. Resist-a-Ball
4. Candles
5. Lots of pillows

5 Things I’ve Always Wanted To Do
1. Have a happy, healthy and fulfilling family Life - got it!
2. Try to Ski
3. Do the MS150 and another Triathlon
4. Go to Italy (again)- See the city where my ancestors are from
5. Figure out what I want to be when I grow up!

5 Things I’m Currently Into
1. Cycling
2. Deepening my spirituality; awareness.
3. My kid, my Husband :)
4. Biggest Loser, Idol, Dancing WTS
5. Audio Books

Wednesday, April 09, 2008

I Can't Believe I Didn't Share This!

That makes today a double-post day! Holy Cow!!

So we've had this harmless-prank thing going on in our office. It really has been silly-fun and it breaks the monotony of the day.

Many years ago, at a place of previous employment, "the box" was conceived. The Box was simply a box that had an address label on the top, left by the "Prankster", and appeared to the "Prankee"as an incorrect delivery. The Prankee would then pick-up box to bring it to its rightful owner. However when the box is picked-up the bottom is cut out, therefore a sh*tload of packing peanuts drop everywhere. :) ha. ha. Right? Those boogers are a pain to clean-up!

So the first pranks observed included a f@rt machine and Snickers-smeared underwear. Yeah, I know... gross; but funny nonetheless. I decided that it should be time to enlighten them and unveil the tradition of "the box".

I did. And it was good. We nailed 6 different people with the box. :)

You know how I always say, "Dawg, don't hate the playah, hate da game." Right?

Well, I guess I really don't say THAT exactly, but you know what I mean. People love to "hate" on others who get them? Well, I was no exception. While I was out on vacation to NJ, they took "the box" to a new level. Got me good!

Allow me to set the scene. I come in, after being out for 2 weeks. On my way into work the thought crosses my mind that a payback might ensue... but I didn't dwell on it. I find my office door shut -- the only office door shut, and realize something might be fishy. I slowly open the door and see a couple peanuts fall from the sky. Sh*t. They got me...the pictures will tell the rest:


At the very least, it's lovely to know how much they really missed me!:)

100 Ways Wednesdays




Here we are again... this weeks installment (31 - 40) of 100 Ways my life has been changed. Join SignGurl and company and list-away!

In as many ways as my life has changed, it is really challenging to actually think, recall and list them.



31) People see "me" more often, not just my size.
32) Have I mentioned I just feel "good?" No, I mean I feel "great!"
33) I absolutely cannot wear "Women's" sized tops anymore - that freaks me out!
34) Actually enjoying making choices that will improve my health and make for better nutrition.
35) The confidence I feel when other trainers at my gym say to my trainer, "she can bench what?" (135 lbs., FYI)
36) I no longer feel like I live under a veil of hopelessness.
37) Because I feel more confident, I am finding the courage to make some life-changing career decisions.
38) The indescribable feeling of just wanting to do more, More, MORE!
39) Just being happy and having others notice my happiness.
40) Not really WLS related, but my new implants and teeth -- having the freedom to smile about the 39 other things I've listed -- and I can chew my food on top of it! :)

1) I am no longer Diabetic.
2) I no longer suffer from High Cholesterol.
3) I no longer need a C-PAP Machine.
4) I identify myself less with being the fat-girl-who-can't-lose-weight and more with just living in a healthy, fit body.
5) I no longer worry about food in the same way I did before; I'm not consumed with it.
6) I have better cholesterol, at 128, than my doctor.
7) My Husband's constant reminders of how he supports my efforts in everything I do.
8) Being able to really "play" with my Daughter... Cart Wheel anyone?
9) Watching who I have always been (or wanted to be) on the inside come out.
10) Prioritizing my needs; investigating and strengthening my spirituality.
11) Not having to buy just shoes and handbags (because you know they always fit!).
12) Never taking for granted the fact that I can be physically challenged.
13) While I aways enjoyed exercise, I love it even more now -- because I can do more.
14) Seeing glimpses of a person who is occasionally more confident and at times even more social in unusual settings.
15) Not avoiding eye contact with strangers.
16) Not overflowing the air plane seat; being able to cross my legs.
17) Nights of sound, restful, sleep; feeling good in the morning!
18) Slowly gaining the courage to deal with emotional challenges and move past them for good.
19) Going from a size 26W to a 16 Misses ain't so bad either.
20) Living life, not just watching it. Roller blades anyone?
21) Receiving the occasional note from a stranger who tells you, "You inspire me". It always inspires me to be an even better me.
22) Having a great job and receiving appropriate recognition; being taken for the value I bring rather taken on the perception of being fat, lazy and less than smart.
23) Every time I see someone's look of shock, surprise and awe at what I've had the courage to do reminds me how life-changing getting healthy really is.
24) I always took vitamins; but now, EVERY DAY.
25) I've been changed by the stories of others on the same journey and am thankful these "online friends" were/are a part of mine. Strangers sometimes bring the best support.
26) Everything just feels good. Feels better. :) "Nookie" included.
27) Now being confident that I am, in deed, a good role-model for my Daughter.
28) Losing the weight and gaining my health has taken some clutter out of my life. Things seem a tad more simple... well, outside the acceptable levels of insanity.
29) Not totally dreading the Summer and swimsuits anymore.
30) Accepting wholly and practicing the realization that the number on the scale is just a number... it cannot dictate my disposition or who I am.

Tuesday, April 08, 2008


You are the World


Completion, Good Reward.


The World is the final card of the Major Arcana, and as such represents saturnian energies, time, and completion.


The World card pictures a dancer in a Yoni (sometimes made of laurel leaves). The Yoni symbolizes the great Mother, the cervix through which everything is born, and also the doorway to the next life after death. It is indicative of a complete circle. Everything is finally coming together, successfully and at last. You will get that Ph.D. you've been working for years to complete, graduate at long last, marry after a long engagement, or finish that huge project. This card is not for little ends, but for big ones, important ones, ones that come with well earned cheers and acknowledgements. Your hard work, knowledge, wisdom, patience, etc, will absolutely pay-off; you've done everything right.


What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

Monday, April 07, 2008

Space Race - Done!

That's me finishing... stick a fork in me I'm so done! Really... I'm a crispy critter from lack of sunscreen.

The Space Race was sponsored by Ronald McDonald house... so guess what waiting for us at the Finish: Hamburgers! LOL

It was a fabulous day for riding. Winds were 8 to 10 mph from the East. Of course at some point we were going right into the wind, but I was still able to maintain my speed. I was all excited to see my average of 16.2 through 2/3's of the race, but then the wind came. :(

I did 60 miles in 3 hours 40 minutes with a final average speed of 14.6 and a high max speed of 20-something mph.

FYI, burned 6,887 calories, according to my heart rate monitor. Body-wise I feel good today (physically). If it weren't for the sun burn, I'd just feel like I had a hard workout. I'm ready for next weekend!

I also learned that PowerAide does not like me... had a small foaming episode; luckily it didn't turn into vomiting. I also learned that while I can't palate GU, I can handle, slowly, the PowerGel.

It's the cycling shorts that make my a$$ look that big, right? Right. ;-) Good lord!

And last, a family pic. :)

Saturday, April 05, 2008

Saturday Riding

Sorry, mostly boring post just so I can journal what worked today.

Winds: 8 mph
Distance: 40 miles
Avg. Speed: 14.2
Max Speed: 19.6

I'm still having some trouble with my low gears (damnit!) makes it hard to shift as approporiate to keep cadence. All-in-all, for riding alone and lack of training, not bad for me.

I focused on fueling every 10 miles (that's the distance between the stops at the MS150). I used "X-tend" recovery drink, which I seem to get better results with, as opposed to Cytomax. I did down 24 oz. of Cytomax before I even started riding today. I supplemented my liquid recovery with my favorite Snackin' Flax and some mediterrainian apricots (low on the glycemic index, but quick to your muscles).

Breakfast was 2 slices of sprouted grain bread and 1.5 oz. of low fat Cheese. About an hour later I had Nonfat yogurt with Blueberries. (Seemed to work)

Last night my trainer had a "newbie" shadowing our session. He told her I'm the second strongest woman in my gym, benching 135... my competition benches 155 and presses 800 on the leg press. She's competing in a bodybuilding competition at the end of the month. Not to toot my horn, but that kind of put things in perspective for me! Wow... maybe I am strong. Maybe I do have muscle underneat this coat of loose skin and flab. ;-)

Friday, April 04, 2008

All About Whining Today....

My training session on Tuesday, coupled with riding yesterday, is causing me some serious soreness. I know it's all good, but why does it have to hurt soooo much. I haven't had to hold on to the railing of my stairwell since I was pre-op! LOL

Today I'm having lunch with former co-worker. It will be interesting to see what her true intentions are. I'm not sure she really just wants to do lunch. I mean I've been gone for a year and all of a sudden, out of the blue, she wants to do lunch. She's a salesperson, so to speak, so I never trust them outright. Like I said it will be interesting.

Mapping out a 60 mile route for tomorrow. The thought of it is daunting and quite honestly I don't really want to do it, but I know I have to -- otherwise I'll be regretting it later on. It just stinks riding alone. :(

Sunday is the Space Race, and another 60 miles. After Sunday will be a week of rest, with the exception of my training sessions. I need all of my legs for the following weekend!

The guy I replaced is coming into the office today; also interesting to see what will go on today.

Thursday, April 03, 2008

Boring Post About My Hump Day:
No Actual Humping Involved ;-)

Wow! My legs are already feeling last night's training session; almost tempted to text my trainer to tell him so as it would make him feel good. ;-) We did barbell squats, lunges, 1-legged squats and leg curls. Everything seemed to take it's toll quickly, but I guess that's because of all the riding this weekend.

Picked up my bike last night. The tune up is done and they refit me for it since I was so much heavier when first purchased it. My leg length did not change, but the clearance I needed for my stomach and pedaling sure had!

After waiting 2 hours for my bike I got to go home. I missed bedtime with the Cassinator, but she was still up talkin'/singing to herself. So I went in, kissed her good night, and heard "Mama I missed you. Of course that made it well worth it all.

Watched my Tivo'd Biggest Loser --what a mistake! I knew eventually the Blue Team would have to start eating their "own kind", so to speak, but why they didn't vote off Mark is beyond me. I mean seriously... I see him, Roger and Ali as the biggest threats. I'm only going to ask this once... what's the deal with all the boo-hoo'n? I mean the Blue Team is crying more than Kelly!

Nevermind "Pride on 3! Pride on 3" should be "Cry on 3...!"

Today I'm riding after work... I know you are all excited.

Anyway, a boring entry, but it's all I got.

Wednesday, April 02, 2008

100 Ways Wednesdays


I'd been meaning to do this since SignGrl announced it, so I guess I'm going to play catch up and do 1-30 so I'm on Week 3.

Join SignGrl and friends and list 100 ways your life has been changed by weight loss. Do a new list of 10 each week until you reach 100. It is a great way to remind yourself of where you came from and recognize your achievements.

Here I go!


1) I am no longer Diabetic.
2) I no longer suffer from High Cholesterol.
3) I no longer need a C-PAP Machine.
4) I identify myself less with being the fat-girl-who-can't-lose-weight and more with just living in a healthy, fit body.
5) I no longer worry about food in the same way I did before; I'm not consumed with it.
6) I have better cholesterol, at 128, than my doctor.
7) My Husband's constant reminders of how he supports my efforts in everything I do.
8) Being able to really "play" with my Daughter... Cart Wheel anyone?
9) Watching who I have always been (or wanted to be) on the inside come out.
10) Prioritizing my needs; investigating and strengthening my spirituality.
11) Not having to buy just shoes and handbags (because you know they always fit!).
12) Never taking for granted the fact that I can be physically challenged.
13) While I aways enjoyed exercise, I love it even more now -- because I can do more.
14) Seeing glimpses of a person who is occasionally more confident and at times even more social in unusual settings.
15) Not avoiding eye contact with strangers.
16) Not overflowing the air plane seat; being able to cross my legs.
17) Nights of sound, restful, sleep; feeling good in the morning!
18) Slowly gaining the courage to deal with emotional challenges and move past them for good.
19) Going from a size 26W to a 16 Misses ain't so bad either.
20) Living life, not just watching it. Roller blades anyone?
21) Receiving the occasional note from a stranger who tells you, "You inspire me". It always inspires me to be an even better me.
22) Having a great job and receiving appropriate recognition; being taken for the value I bring rather taken on the perception of being fat, lazy and less than smart.
23) Every time I see someone's look of shock, surprise and awe at what I've had the courage to do reminds me how life-changing getting healthy really is.
24) I always took vitamins; but now, EVERY DAY.
25) I've been changed by the stories of others on the same journey and am thankful these "online friends" were/are a part of mine. Strangers sometimes bring the best support.
26) Everything just feels good. Feels better. :) "Nookie" included.
27) Now being confident that I am, in deed, a good role-model for my Daughter.
28) Losing the weight and gaining my health has taken some clutter out of my life. Things seem a tad more simple... well, outside the acceptable levels of insanity.
29) Not totally dreading the Summer and swimsuits anymore.
30) Accepting wholly and practicing the realization that the number on the scale is just a number... it cannot dictate my disposition or who I am.

Tuesday, April 01, 2008

Well, I've officially met my minimum fund-raising requirement for the MS150. So all my friends, family and supporters should be happy to know they will all play a part in how much my a$$ will hurt the evening of April 13th. I probably won't be able to sit for a week, but I'll think of each one of you each time I find myself wincing with pain.

There's still time to get in on the pain-game... if you want:
http://www.ms150.org/ms150/donate/donate.cfm?id=214613

I know I should be better prepared than I am. My vacation and unscheduled surgery really got me BEHIND on Saddle time (no pun intended), but I'm trying not to focus on that -- I can't change it anyway, so it's wasted energy. Right now my focus is to go a distance 2 days back-to-back. Last weekend I did 2 days of riding back-to-back, and this weekend I will increase the distance and do the same. If I can do 60 miles back-to-back this weekend, then I have no fears that I'll get through 80 miles back-to-back come April 12th. Not that it will be easy, but I'll manage. It's not a race... the hardest part is actually showing up to the Start line. :)

Plans for the week...

TUE - Training Session
WED - Pick-up Bike from Shop (hopefully squeeze in 45 miles)
THU - 50 Miles
FRI - Training Session
SAT - 60 Miles (pick-up Space Race Packet)
SUN - Space Race - 60 Mile Route

This year I can actually see myself crossing the Finish. In years past when I've contemplated (briefly) doing the MS150 I could never see it. Kinda nice to be able to see myself accomplish something I let elude me for so long.

MS 150 Check List:

Cycling Equipment
Helmet -- REQUIRED
2 pair Padded bike shorts
Team Jersey
Cycling gloves, socks and shoes
Heart Rate Monitor
Sunglasses, lip balm and sunscreen
Tire patch kit, spare tubes and tire pump
Identification (driver’s license)
Emergency cash and credit card
Water bottles and hydration pack
Rider/Tour Credentials & Maps
Camera (charged), Case and extra battery
Cycling Rain Jacket
Cell phone

Overnight Bag
Vitamins
Sleeping bag and mat
Cell phone (doubles as alarm clock)
2 Towels & 2 Washclothes for shower
Fold-up Chair
iPod (???)
Toiletries including soap and shampoo
Ball Cap
Light Jacket
Change of clothes for Saturday evening
Change of clothes for Sunday
Plastic cover for bike seat on Saturday night
Casual Shoes
Travel-size detergent (to wash team jersey)
half-dozen plastic shopping bags
half-dozen zip-loc bags